Sunday, April 19, 2009

Don't need to wait for the answers before you step out in faith

This may very well be my last blog entry from this side of the Atlantic. We're leaving really early Thursday morning, 5 am, and driving 10-13 hours south and west to Rwanda. We drive back to UCU on May 1st and then up to Entebbe the next day, to spend 3 days doing a debrief of our semester here. My days here are numbered. I have 8 days in Uganda, split by 10 days in Rwanda, remaining. I'm still not sure how exactly I feel about going home. I've spent 4 months here, with a group of students experiencing a lot of the same sort of things. I've been stretched and I've learned a lot and gradually become more comfortable here. Now I'm about to leap back into life at home, where not a lot has changed...except me. I don't really know how I'll react to being home, to people and...life. I feel like my whole way of thinking and processing has changed and the way I view the world and politics and...everything. I'm a little...nervous. Anxious. Panicky. I've heard from other people about returning home. I know that I'll be overwhelmed.
I also have no idea how to communicate any of what I've learned, about myself or the world or life or God. It's...I don't even know. I'll just wait and see. I can't predict everything now. It'll be alright. Vaya con Dios.

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